Making 2013

It seems that for the longest time I have struggled to fully complete my yearly resolutions. I have to say that 2012 was one of those years where I actually did stick to the majority of my goals. I am a firm believer in that whatever you devote your energy and thoughts on, will all ultimately be a reality for you. So many times I catch myself complaining about things. Sometimes it's easy to get distracted from the things I do have in my life. Living each and every day with gratitude is important. It's the only way to welcome in new things into your life and to really appreciate them. This year, I want to remain focused. Focused on my goals, gratitude, and love. I need to push myself a little harder, but still take everything one day at a time. I've come to accept that I need to leave behind many things just to move forward. Ex relationships, old jobs, things that made me unhappy. I still have yet to do that this year. I'm going to be jumping over some tall obstacles to get to where I want to be. But what have I got to lose? I'm in desperate need of a leap of faith. So here it is. My leap of faith over the course of 2013.

• Leaving my hometown. Living at home with my parents has been nice. It's been a great way for me to save money. Being here has also kept me hidden. I have such a desire to get out into the city. Being at home is just me playing it safe. I really need to venture outside of my comfort zone. Finding an apartment in the city will happen this year. My greatest fear that I will conquer over this, is the fear of losing everything. It's not easy moving one place to another not knowing what the future will bring you. But that's something I need to leave behind, because it's preventing me from moving forward.

• Accomplishing more with my internship. I have this feeling that it's time to take things to the next level. I have been offered a great opportunity to work with Omaha Fashion Week and to help improve it in my own way. Sometimes I don't realize how big of a deal this is for me. I have the ability to do whatever I want with this. I have new ideas and projects this year and they will all be done to make the experience of Omaha Fashion Week, one that people wont forget. I'm not leaving here until my mark is made. 

• Good wealth & health. Struggling with both of these is a pretty common thing, but this year I'm going to really take charge. I always have fears of losing money and not having enough. I need to spend more time thinking about how much I do have instead of how much I'm lacking. Saving money is always a good thing, but it's okay to spend as well. Being able to say that you can afford something can really make you feel good about yourself. Money isn't everything, but the truth is, is that money is everywhere. You will never lack money if you truly believe in yourself and work hard. It's completely the same with health. If you have great focus on your health and well being on a day to day basis, that is all you really need. This year, I'm going to keep myself inspired. If I'm truly not happy with my situation, I will change it and move on. Happiness is key here.

• Freelance blogging. I've had this blog for a little over a year now and I couldn't be happier to have the followers I have now. I'm going to stick with posting entries on a regular basis and thinking of new ways to really catch people's attention. My blog is really here to help inspire all of you. I'm going to set a goal of how many followers I will have by the end of the year... I will have over a thousand followers by the end of this year. I think that's a good start. Something that helps keep me on track is reading other blogs. I've even stumbled upon popular blogs run by 12-13 year olds. Very impressive. Anything is possible.

• Finding love. Last year I found myself looking for love in all of the wrong places. I had to retrace my steps and really think about why those past relationships didn't work out for me. It's easy to get upset and caught up in thoughts of what could've been. Somewhere along the road I finally grasped the concept that those relationships didn't work out because there was something better waiting for me. Then I began to think about what I took from those experience. How did they change me? They changed me for the better. Taking a good thing from a bad situation is a powerful way to move on. This year, I'm going to take it one step at a time and realize the love I already have in front of me. I have an amazing family and the most lovely friends. What more could I need right now?

• Confidence and courage. Those two C's have been hard for me to really find in my life. I grew up a very quiet and small lady with a little voice. Over the course of the years, I've been bullied and not always understood because of being too short, or just dressing differently. I've been walked all over. Standing up for myself has been a challenge for me. I admit, I am too nice most times. I want to turn that around this year. I'm not a doormat. I definitely feel that I've gained confidence through my years of high school and college. I've learned to love myself for who I am. I want that to really shine through to people. I will not be getting through this year without confidence and courage. The courage to face your fears is important and that is something I will gain this year. 

• Travel. This is something I've been wanting to do for a while now. It doesn't matter where this year takes me. I just want it to take me to foreign places. Experiencing a new atmosphere, around new unfamiliar faces is something I strive for. You can gain so much knowledge from experiencing living outside of your home. I hope to spend these next couple of years in different places, surrounded by different faces. It's a scary experience, but one that is well worth it.
  
  “Travel is the only thing you buy that makes you richer.” — C Turlington. 

That pretty much sums up my "resolutions" for the year. I hope that reading through these gives you a little inspiration to really take charge of your life this year. Anything is possible, so don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Things always have a way of working themselves out, you just have to believe it. Be grateful for what you have now, and you will welcome wonderful things into your life. 

Happy new year to all of you.